“The law came in so that the transgression would increase; but where sin increased,
grace abounded all the more,”
Yesterday as I was perusing my IG feed I noticed a post from She Reads Truth inviting everyone who participated in the Hosea study to share on their blog, Instagram, or Facebook account how it impacted their lives. I was super excited about this. I thought, I love Hosea, this study has been terrific, and I have a blog (duh) so naturally I immediately sat down, reviewed the notes in my journal from the last two weeks, and began to type. But nothing happened. For forty five minutes I typed but nothing I wrote resonated with me. So I decided to quit for the night and try again tomorrow. Little did I know what tomorrow would bring.
Today has be one of those days. You know, the ones with major mommy meltdowns and lots of yelling. Nothing catastrophic happened. Actually, most of it is kind of a blur. It was just a really rough day with three small kids. By 4:30 I was strung out and in desperate need of a break. So I packed all my kids into their car seats and drove to the grocery store. Fifteen minutes, I told myself, fifteen minutes is all I need. Thankfully it takes about that long to get to the grocery store and after walking around with the kids in the cart I felt like some of my sanity was beginning to return. After checking out and getting everyone back in the van I was struck by something (not literally). It’s amazing how the Holy Spirit uses seemingly ordinary moments to reveal truth to our hearts. Suddenly I remembered the study. All I could think of was God’s long suffering with His people. His wayward, wandering, disobedient, idolatrous people. Over and over He watched as they sinned against Him. He never reacted impulsively. He didn’t lash out at His children over their sin. He patiently and lovingly corrected them. Then ultimately, He provided a means of escape from the sin that had entangled them.
I’m going to be honest. I was not patient today. Many times I reacted out of emotion rather than love. As a mom I often am overwhelmed by my circumstances. The funny thing is yesterday I felt in control. I remember actually thinking “Wow, the house is clean, I picked and canned corn, the second week of homeschooling is going great, and the kids are keeping a schedule. I got this.” God certainly has a way of giving us perspective. And believe me today I got a lot of perspective. I was reminded that everything I have, do, and am is in His hands. Pride was one of the things that began Israel’s long history of disobedience. The moment we think that “We got this” apart from Him we fall. So quickly we forget the amazing things that God has done for us. I identified with Israel so much during this study. I just wish I would have Identified with God more. After all aren’t I supposed to be imitating Him? He freed me from the shackles of sin so I wouldn’t have to be a slave any more. And yet like Israel and like the Apostle Paul in Romans 7:19 I end up doing the things that I hate and not doing the things that I actually should be doing. Thank God for His grace. The chorus from the old hymn “Grace Greater than our Sin” kept going through my head this evening. “Grace, grace, God’s grace. Grace that will pardon and cleanse within. Grace, grace, God’s grace. Grace that is greater than all my sin.”
I am so thankful that our creator is patient with our weaknesses. I’m also thankful for the team at SheReadsTruth.com. This study was such a blessing.