Well this is my first official blog post. I’ve had this site for about a month and haven’t done much with it. Consider this a belated apology to all of you who have visited the site and wondered where the actual content was. Hopefully you read the about page and about our mission. It’s been kind of a rough start. Not the way one normally wants to start a business but never the less this is how things are. I had every intention of opening up shop the week I bought the domain name for this blog. Which was about five weeks ago. July was a crazy busy month for our family. My husband literally was home for three days. But amidst the wonderful chaos (because it really was an amazing month) we made a huge life changing decision. Which I will most likely explain on a later date. Because of everything that happened last month this new little business of mine was put on the back burner.
Now I’m going to be real honest here. I have the tendency to get super excited about something put all my energy into it and then get totally burned out. This may or may not have contributed to the delay as well but I think the deeper issue here is my own insecurity. I love to do what I do. I love to paint and design things. I am by nature a creator. I don’t know what I’d do if I couldn’t work with my hands. I’ve always wanted to start a small business and have tried here and there. So this is kind of a perfect fit for me. An online shop gives me the freedom to make and sell while also being able to focus on my family. And to be completely transparent there is probably going to come a time in the near future when we may need the extra income. But in the back of my mind there are the doubts that creep in. It’s like they are there just waiting. I begin to think things like “Nobody’s going to buy this. You’re going to fail. There are so many people way better than you why even start. You are not good enough.” And in this world of mom-preneurs it can be easy to fall into this. Don’t believe me. Go check out some of the amazing people I follow on Instagram. Sometimes the amount of talent is overwhelming. People are opening print and art shops everywhere. How is it possible to compete? So, I almost gave into the pressure. The lies that if you may not succeed you might as well raise the white flag of surrender and not even try to begin with and then yesterday happened.
It started because I saw the sign I made that says “Just Begin the Good Work” and then yesterday morning I read this post from gracelaced.com. It impacted me on so many levels the main quote was from G.K. Chesterton and said “If a thing is worth doing, it’s worth doing badly.” Finally at about 4:30 I was able to do my devotions which happened to be Hebrews 10 (one of my favorite passages) the last couple verses say this:
“but my righteous one shall live by faith, and if he shrinks back, my soul has no pleasure in him. But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who have faith and preserve their souls.”
All year long I’ve seen posts about being “brave” and while that’s wonderful I was kind of tired of women telling other women to “be brave.” It became cliche. But really that was my problem I was allowing my fear to dictate my decisions. Actually I do this a lot. Fear can be crippling. The enemy can use it to keep us from doing things that are really important. Not that this is one of those things. But the reality is if I can’t trust God in this simple thing. What does that say about my faith? So yesterday I decided whether I fail or not I am going to try. Pretty heavy for my first post. I hope to have everything listed in the shop by Thursday.
Happy Tuesday Everyone.